I am so depressed this morning.  I just watched a video that someone posted on myspace about a bueatiful little girl that was killed by her mothers new husband, while the little girls daddy was in Iraq.  Her new husband abused the girl for months, and eventually killed her.

It killed me a little bit inside.

I can't take it, I don't understand it.  Since I have had my little guy, I am so much more emoitional about the way that people treat childeren.  How could you even for one second hurt or let anyone else hurt your own blood?  You carry your baby for 9-10 months, you birth them, you care for them as they grow, and then you or someone you choose to have involoved in your life takes all of that away from you.

My worst fear ever since I got pregnant was that something might happen to Ty.  He is so special.  He is truely my everything, and if something ever happened to him I don't know that I could go on living.  If I was responsible for something happening to him I would NEVER EVER forgive myself, I would never be the same. 

I think about horrible things that could happen to him and I quickly act to remove those thoughts from my head because I don't want to have something happen to him because I am thinking about it.... I know, I am crazy, but the point is, doesn't everyone with kids think this way?  How could people do these things to their own kids and live with themselves?  How can you be directly linked to abuse of your kids in anyway!

Dear lord, please give me the ability to forget about those horible people out there that make this world scary to live in.  Give me the ability to be the best parent I can be, and allow me to show others why kids are so amazingly wonderful if they don't already know it!!!